my long lost confidence...

well,wat do i say...i know its been a long time since i actually posted something...writer's block i guess...hahaha...
well,its six months past...and,now i realize..it was NOT LOVE!!!...however,i can safely say that it was my second longest infactuation ....!!!
and so,finally ,im out of it...
and now...im outright,DESPERATE!!!
when i think about it,i wonder,wait a minute...what is actually wrong???
but,deep down inside,i know that everything is wrong...sigh...i seem to have lost that midas touch which alwayz placed me apart(well,atleast according to me...)...its almost like ,somebody has done a "sathru samhara pooja" to make my life a living hell!!! and sure it is....
if it werent for my family and a few close friends,im sure i would have suffered an emotional breakdown...
again,the question arises....wat is the actual problem????...
well,i think i have temporarily lost the most vital component of my system...my CONFIDENCE...
how??when?? where???..well,i dunno...and,frankly speakin i dont wanna know...it scares me..
Right now,as i sit home after my university exams,i can safely say that i have never written a series of examz as disasterous as these...sigh...wat scares me more is that this is just the beginning.....
nowadays,life is not challenging for me...it is scary!!!it somehow seems to be an arena filled with vultures,eagles,ghosts ,all eager to pounce on me...
this new year has soo far been anything but,happy....but...as nowadays people say....
ALL IZZZ WELL!!!!!!!